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I don't know how, I don't know why, but I'm thankful... When I actually stop and think about it, it sort of scares me now to realize how greatly a single person can affect my life. These last few days, I've been moody. Not moody as in just sort of grumpy but moody as in jumping from one extreme of emotion to another within seconds and then back just as fast. It was...very unsettling, to me at least. I have no idea how the people around me took it but I know for a fact that three different people on three different occasions asked me if I was pms-ing or the 'guy equivalent' of it O.O Honestly, that was a shit couple of days...even I knew that something was wrong with me but I couldn't do anything to change it. I'd start a sentence of conversation nice and happy and by the end, I'd be sad and melancholy. It was driving me nuts and no matter who I talked to, nothing could really make me feel better for more than about an hour and a half at a time. It was a pretty bad couple of days...then yesterday... Met up with Jen to go hunt down some books for university at a used book store I knew of. I was sort of...afraid? After all, I'd had almost no contact with her until a few weeks ago and hadn't seen her for more than an hour at once since the time she graduated. So I was...a bit nervous while I waited for her to show up. Turned out that my fears were completely unfounded as when I saw her, it was as if I had seen her on a regular basis the whole time you know? Man, it was just like old times...I can't remember clearly, the last time I had so much fun doing something so simple. Our conversation ranged to pretty much everything and anything as we looked around that little bookstore, which by the way is an awesome place if you're looking for cheap books or hard to find comics and dvd's, and soon after, grabbed some lunch at a nearby Baskin Robbins/sandwich store. I don't know what it is about her...I don't know what it is about her at all...spending time with her again yesterday, it was like downing an ice cold down of water on the hottest day of the summer...or finally falling asleep after staying up for a couple of days. It's indescribable how refreshing it was to spend time with her again. My mind is clear now for the first time in days, my emotions are fixed in place as they normally should be. It's really incredible to me how...greatly a single person can affect me in so short a time. I feel okay, I WOULD feel perfect if it wasn't for the fact that I'm a bit tired due to stupid David and his snoring when he slept over ^.^ So all in all, barring a little bit of tiredness, I feel fine... |