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I hate life so much right now.... Fuck...sorry, Helen, for the cussing...but seriously...just....FUCK!!! >.< Sometimes...I can really believe that there IS a God...I mean, hell, someone's gotta be getting a laugh outta my fucked up life right? Shit... -.- Oh, I'm sorry did you actually want to know what happened? Got back from church... (shit, that still sounds so strange...) at home, up here in my room doing my own thing when mom comes up. Tells me "If I went away for a while, left the car, and you had to stay with your dad or your uncle's family, which would you choose?" ". . . " "But I'll tell you right now, if you stay with your dad, your sister won't come down because she doesn't want to see him." ". . ." "Yeah, I'm not too sure when I'm going to be going but just think about it so that you can give me a quick decision okay?" ". . ." Great fucking conversation no? Geez...I ask her where she's going, why? Does she answer any of my questions? No. Let's consider...if I stay with my dad...I have to see my dad and talk tto him on a regular basis -.-, and NOT only that, I probably will see my sister even LESS than I do now...which is once for a few days every month and a half. On the plus side, I'll still be in Toronto... If i go with my uncle...I'm looking at a 30 minute highway drive to school and considering that a parkingpass for the year at shcool is fucking $600, I wont' be buying that...So I'll have to park at scarborough town or something and bus from there...daily...and i'll be fucking FAR....and my uncle's sorta strange and one of the three kids at their house gets annoying REALLY fast after prolonged contact.... This sucks SO fucking hard....fuck. I KNEW this would happen. This morning, woke up feeling sorta...bleh but talking to Kim in the afternoon really helped bring me back up and the whole Youth thing DID help...then something like this fucking shit has just GOT to top off my day. Why the hell do I even bother? I mean, honeslty, why even bother? Fuck...I need a way to relieve stress. I need to fucking pound the shit out of something. God I just want to scream... . . . And hey, more great news...David just messeged me...he got fucked over with a last minute project worth half his grade assigned today and due on Monday...looks like going to see the Matrix is out of my plans too....I wonder what else is gonna go wrong before the night is over.... >.< FUCK!! I mean honestly...is a little peace and quiet too much to ask for? I just finished midterms a week ago, and have finals in two weeks not to mention that godawful english paper also due in two weeks...I could use a bit of breathing room...just a bit...is that too much to fucking ask for? Sigh...life sucks SO fucking hardcore right now... |