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I don't see the point anymore... Things are going wrong...going all wrong all one after another after another. How much more can I take of this bullshit? I'm really starting to get curious and have the distinct feeling that if things keep up the way they're going, I'm going to find out. Family problems...they haven't changed and if anything, have gotten worse. The fact that I don't care about this in the least disturbs me somewhat. I just don't care...and I'm not exaggerating or anything at all. Despite what my sister believes, I'm not just being 'manly' or just 'hiding my feelings deep inside' , I just seriously, really don't give a flying fuck about what my parents are doing or how they feel. If feeling that way makes me a bad person...then what can I say? I guess that makes me a bad person -.- My dad still calls now and again, tells me the same things...that we should meet up or something when I have time...that he misses me. All I can feel is a sort of annoyance. Just a 'whatever...' feeling if you can dig it. I just REALLY don't care to see him one way or another. Mom's pissing me off an awful lot these days too...she can be SO fucking stupid in the way she does shit. She's ridiculously hypocriticaland just the shit she does fucking PISSES ME OFF. Like just now for example. She calls me downstairs while she's in the living room to open the door for the dog to get back in. She lets the damned thing out, she's SITTING IN THE LIVING ROOM ON THE PHONE and she calls ME down to open the fucking door. She was less than ten steps from the damned thing and she calls me downstairs from the second floor to open the door. She does it again, to get the door when she's fucking SITTING there on the phone. Like...I'm as lazy as the next guy but C'MON fuck... As for new events...hey look, after my mom got into that car accident, she rented a car for a while. It's still here in fact but no biggy right? She can still drive around and shit...well, that becomes sorta hard to do if the insurance bills aren't paid...which my dad was supposed to do and apparently...stopped doing. So she's stressing at ME over that...oh and who could forget the lease payments which are also not being paid so hey, guess what? There's no car to drive even if she COULD drive...not that she could. This also happily renders all those fucking BORING hours of mine spent at 'drivers training school.' I call it useless...fucking waste of time, teaching me nothing but shit that I already know or is common sense. So understandably, my mom has become sort of hard to live with. For me at least, I'm sure that my sister or a lot of other people for that matter would still be perfectly fine with her but I don't think that I am. And hey, as if life weren't difficult enough, looky looky, finals in a week and no social life...but that at least is old news...and I'm starting to learn to live with it. STill worried about bugging you about procrastinating Helen...I know you said it's okay but I'm still allowed to wish that I hadn't done it can't I? |