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Irritable Lately... I find that I'm oddly thin-skinned lately. I'm more prone to feeling exasperated and irritable and even downright angry at times. The reasons behind these little emotional tempests and outbursts aren't ones that warrant such extremes. This troubles. me. I findmyself getting angry and extremely annoyed at even the little things that would usually slide right off without a scratch. A recent case example of this would be the whole essay editing thing. I mean, it's not as if they asked for help when I had an exam or was otherwise engaged right? I'm just sort of chilling until my exam dates come around and yet, I found myself getting so exasperated and frustrated over something as little as giving me their essays to edit one day in advance when in all five cases, I finished the editing an hour or two after it was passed to me. That would normally just slide off and it normally HAS slid off. I don't know what's changed. My laid back attitude towards the upcoming exams doesn't SEEM different but really, it has. Last year and the previous years, I seemed laid back at exam time out of a sense of complacency, I knew that I would do okay even without cramming for a week straight. This year...I'm still laid back about it, but it's rising more from a sense of "what's the point?" rather than a confidence in my own abilities to score decently. I don't like it. Not only is it affecting me adversely, I doubt that this change in behaviour is making me the best company lately. I feel vaguely dazed and confused, as if someone's been punching at me with a mild soporific. I feel like the world's gone kinda grey...as if in photoshop, someone just sort of lowered the intensity of the colors. It's not as if I'm spending an excessive amount of time alone lately either...I have friends over to chill, still go out for the odd movie, dinner, drinks, etc, etc...but for some reason...I'm just not feeling it. I think that's the salient point that I want to get across here about how I'm taking in life right now. I'm just not feeling it. |