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Kissing When people get together, when they start getting closer to each other and try to find a way to express that physically, the reasonable way to do so would be to kiss yes? You see it all the time in al sorts of couples and stuff. We don't. I have no idea what to say except that we just...don't. We have tried on occasion, to be honest though, it felt more to me as if we were trying because...it was conventional to kiss you know? Because we both felt that it was something that should be done, not really because we felt any need to do so. Needless to say, it was rather odd. I mean, if things were perfect on that end as everything else seems to be, I wouldn't be writing this up now would I? :P I guess that's just what you get when you put together two people who have no experience with such things. Neither of us know what to do and trying just feels so damned awkward and strange... Though again, don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that it doesn't feel good or interesting at all. There REALLY is something to be said for having her lips on mine...it feels nice and all but I still find that just holding her does more for me, it feels a lot better to me. Sigh, I'm just kind of rambling at the moment...I guess I'm rather lucky in that she doesn't really expect that of me. From what she's told me, she feels the same way about kissing as I do...that it's rather sloppy, she doesn't understand what all the 'hype' is about. But it doesn't stop me from feeling kind of...like I've failed in a way? That's not the right word...maybe that I just haven't been able to do enough. That I haven't been able to measure up. I think that's what I'm going for. I've been tried and found wanting. But, being perfectly frank, who the hell needs kisses anyway? Sure as hell ain't me. The few times we've tried, I just haven't been able to kiss her back and I honestly have no idea why. Like, I have some vague idea of what I'm supposed to do? But when we try, it's like I'm too fascinated by the warm feeling of her lips against mine to react properly to it XD. I'm hopeless guys...I know it, you don't have to tell me twice. But seriously, I'm perfectly happy even when we don't kiss...because in my mind, kissing, or being kissed in my case :P, doesn't hold a candle to a full-bodied hug. It can't compare to the fun I have when I tickle her and just feels so much less than lightly trailing my fingers down her back and hearing that sharp intake of breath that tells me that I've found yet another one of her sensitive spots; she's extremely ticklish and I know that I've found a good spot when I hear her gasp ^.^. I just don't see it guys...I don't see why so many people do it, I don't see why it supposedly feels so good. Like, again, don't get me wrong, it's a nice sensation but it's nothing to write home about and it just can't compare to how other the other things make me feel... I find it interesting that she feels the same way...or at least, that she says that she feels the same...I wonder sometimes if maybe she's just saying it to spare my feelings, but I really don't get that impression. She really doesn't seem to care for it too much either... Sigh...what a pair we make huh? :P |